I finally was able to go to through the pictures of our baby; oh it hurts so much; how much i miss him; how much my heart is broken. how much pain im in today and every day with every smile with every laugh the pain is like a shadow that is always present. These are some of my favorite shots. o my baby... the pain of the heart it goes beyond.
He is beautiful. Sometimes, for me, the good memories hurt worse than the bad ones. I can replay the day I found my son dead over and over and feel just a shadow. Yet I can't think about the picnics we went on, the bath times, and the night feedings without sobbing.
ReplyDeleteHis cheeks! And so much hair. I love the photos...especially the bathtub. He's looking like such a sweet baby. The photo of you looking at him in bed is so sweet. I am so sorry. Jayden was a real cutie.
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